SuNdaY Sux!

Gilaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Hari Sabtu dan Minggu, gak berasa liburnya.. Lembur terooosss.. emang susah punya boss yang workaholic.. kita karyawan kudu kerja juga.. gag kuad deh ..

Anyway, semalem I met up with a friend. He seems nice, but NOT my type :p Who told you that whoever I met should be my type? And, I met him again... You know, I read the novel "kok putusin gue?" again, and it looks exactly like me.

I felt the shiver. The memories keep turning back on.. just like backflash episodes. Dear God, if I can't have him back, tell me what to do.. Why does he keep rushing back in my thoughts? :(

I would really like to run away, shutting all the past behind me. But I realise I can't. I have to deal with it. I have to deal all my feelings, try to deny every shivering thoughts of him, try hard to handle all his kisses, all his touch... I felt numb. I don't know how to react, don't know how to get back on my own feet again. And again, every time I meet him, I had to handle all the toughts that keeps gobble me in..

If this will be the end of this journey, tell me what to do, God... I am still damn in love with him, and I don't know what to do...


memoir,
all those living nights beside you,
feeling your arms behind me,
snuggle up my face in your neck,
I still feel the warmth of your kiss..
If you dont belong to me again,
please just lie to me and tell me
that you still love me and sometimes longing for me..
Just like I love you and longing for your tenderness...

:(

RainY FridaY

Kenapa harus ada HARPITNAS??? Eh, tapi belum tentu Harpitnas juga sih.. soalnya kayanya Besok masuk Kantor.. *menyebalkan* sekali bukan?

Yang lucu, tadi pagi gue iseng-iseng masukin profile ke salah satu site Indonesia. And believe it or not, dalam jangka waktu kurang dari 1 jam.. banyak banget yang ngajak kenalan! Ternyata oh Ternyata masih laku juga... :D

Kemarin gue BETE abis, I felt so disturbing.. why? Perhaps now I know that I can't hate a person that I once had fall in love with... I still feel so in love with him... And yet, I know that we can't be together again.. I felt such a nuisance..!!!

Tentang Kepercayaan.....

Setelah muntah muntah dan pingsan kemarin, akhirnya balik lagi kerja.. Heran deh, dateng pagi diketawain, dateng siang dimarahin :p gag ngerteeee... Anyway, pagi ceria banget.

Topik pagi ini adalah tentang rasa percaya. Kamu pernah tau rasanya mempercayai orang, hingga kamu bisa percayakan pikiran, hati, dan bahkan jiwamu kepada satu orang? Biasanya rasa itu hadir 'pabila kamu mencintai ataupun menyayangi seseorang itu tanpa pamrih. Ga pake tedeng aling-aling. Kamu percayakan seluruh ceritamu padanya, kamu percayakan penuh semua pikiranmu padanya. Tapi bagaimana kalau tiba-tiba cinta itu tidak lagi ada? Rasa percaya itu akan bubar-jalan. Tapi, karena kamu pernah mencintai dan mempercayainya, kamu akan berpegang teguh pada janji-janji yang pernah dia utarakan padamu. Gue pernah ngerasain kaya gitu. Dan hanya karena orang itu tidak lagi cinta sama gue, gue gak pernah punya pikiran jelek bahwa dia bakalan cerita-cerita ke orang yang gue kenal soal gue. Ngejelek-jelekin gue misalnya, atau bahkan cerita tentang rahasia gue yang paling dalam.

Tapi, ternyata gue salah. Orang yang pernah gue percaya dan cintai nikam gue dari belakang. Rahasia gue yang paling dalam dia ceritain ke orang yang sama sekali gue gag kenal. Dan gue shock berat. Tapi gak papa.. mungkin memang harusnya gak ada orang bisa dipercaya sekarang ini. Sekarang, gue lagi membangun sesuatu yang besar, yang bahkan orang buta bisa ngeliat.

Ternyata Tuhan masih sayang sama gue. Gue dikasih tau terus-terusan bahwa gue gak seharusnya memberikan rasa percaya itu kepada manusia biasa. :) Terima kasih Tuhan... Gue juga dikasih tau terus sama Tuhan, betapa ternyata cinta dan percaya tidak pernah abadi..

Gue pernah mencintai, dicintai, menyakiti dan disakiti. Gue rasa.. itu perjalanan hidup kok. Setiap orang pasti pernah ngalamin. Tinggal gimana kita menyikapi (niru Aa Gym). Dan Alhamdulillah.. gue selalu diberi kekuatan.

Yah, gue gak nyuruh siapa-siapa untuk gak percaya sama orang yang dicintai. Tapi hati-hati ajah lah.. soalnya, kalau orang itu ngerasa disakitin sama elu, dia bakalan bisa lebih jahat dari orang yang kita anggap paling jahat sekalipun..

Seperti kata mantan gue dulu : be wise, be careful, be smart, be yourself... :)


And that is what i am trying to be...

Feeling LousY...

Niatnya dari hari Selasa kemarin gak masuk.. eh.. ditelpon sama bu Rita .. katanya harus beresin kerjaan dulu.. Gile yee.. lagi sakit sakit gitu tetep aja disuruh masuk coba... Akhirnya.. gue masuk tuw.. jam 2 siang baru nongol. Kek Ongol-ongol.. Eh.. teganyaaaa.. si bu boss malah kabur jam 4 sore!!! mo marah kan? mana pas gue lagi keabisan ongkos pula.. (Woi!! Yang ngerasa bawa kabur duit + HP gue balekeeeeeeennnn)

Hari Rabu, gue Bales dendam deh.. gag masuk seharian.. Tapi tetep yeee.. tu HP gak berhenti bernyanyi.... *keluh* Kapan gue bisa tidur tenang!?

Walhasil, sekarang nih... Hari Kamis.. gue berangkat KEPAGIAN...sukses kan?? sampe di kantor.. belum ada manusia... jam 07.10 udah nyampe kantor coba??!!! Huwh! Dan begitu gue lihat meja.. Ya amplop..banyak kali lah itu kerjaan!!!

Hari ini bisa gajian gag ya.... *nyengir*

Capeee....

Ugh, today was tiring.. I have to set up meeting with those marketers.. and typing lots of stuff that's to be handed right away. Blum lagi abis kerjain itu, tiba tiba dah disuruh lagi bikin perjanjian dan kontrak.. capek banget.. dah gitu Oceanus bilang dia baru bisa balik besok .. Yah sudah lah... Besok tambah bejibun lagi kayanya yang dateng ke kantor.. I am not complaining sih..cuma BETE aja.. baru sempet makan siang jam 4 sore.. terus banyak deadlines.. (web web web!!) Capeknya ... anyway... tapi kantor jadi makin rame.. enak lah ..banyak yang bisa dicela ntar.. heuehie... Btw, tgl 7 ada yang udah mulai kerja ... *lirik* I wish you the best .. on your next career deh ya.. *congrats* Bingung mau ngepost apa... gak bisa mikir blassss..!! see ya...

The Actions In the Office

Bwahahahaha.. Ini asli lagi pada centil... pada nganggur gak ada kerjaan.. eh, benernya ada sih.. foto foto ini diambil pas lagi istirahat.. Yang makan ya makan, yang kerja ya kerja... saya mah foto foto saja lah .. daripada BETE.. ya gag sih? eheihiee.. ya udah ah.. ini langsung diambil, pake digicam temen, scan.. langsung upload bow.. jadi Fresh From the Camera.. *ckckck.. beneran gag ada kerjaan yak?* Lucu-lucu yeeee...
Some Actions Happens in the Office !!

Pagi Ceria (CeritanyaH)

Yea Right, Met him last nite, and suprisingly.. We had Loads of fun !! I must be loosing my brains... !!! Anyway, we went back to my house by cab.. and stopped by to take sumthin to eat. It was like nite out picnic or sumthin. We pulled over to some Tahu Thek in Jl. Arteri Pondok Indah, listening to a music coming out from the cab's stereo set (trust me, we heard nice music!). And in front of us, we stared at those lousy traffic jammed! It was too good to be true.. :) Phew, I am not looking forward for today... So many things to do I think. I have to upload those datas to the website. And my boss Mr. Adam is going to have a serious talk with the contractor.. Not to mention Ms. Rita (dat's mah other boss) is having a seriously stressed up cos' she had a fight wif her boyfriend! Oh well.. might as well start the MorniNg Coffee !! See Later.. By the way.. I named the Guy Oceanus.. (He is just like the Ocean, slowly, yet.... shockin'!)

In My Office  

Di kantor..

Uhm, ya gini deh situasi kantor.. komputernya menghadap ke pintu.. kebayang kalo boss tiba-tiba nongol dan gue gak liat kan??? Duh.. berabenya harus cepet cepet mencet alt+tab!! Ini ceritanya lagi pada centil... satu satu di foto di ruangan kerja masing-masing.. heuahiha... Ya.. mau gimana lagi.. namanya juga kantor baru.. masih berasa Noraknya.. :P

Di monitor, ada foto keluarga gue.. dan sekarang.. foto ini dijadiin desktop gue.. heuahia.. Berasa foto dalam foto.. ya biarlah.. abis gue paling males beli pigura/frame buat ditaro di kantor.. kesannya kok.. Ini kantor atau meja kantor pribadi?

Gila.. gue masih bete aja.. ngerjain tugas-tugas yang seolah gak ada habisnya ini.. Sekarang masih awal bulan.. dan gue juga udah lagi liat liat tanggal.. Gajian masih lama yak?

Oh Gosh!!! Confusing!! I still have to make some summary for web content.. upload some pictures to put in our company's website.. What am I really? Secretary or a super worker? Can't they gimme a break?? Haven't had my lunch yet!! *pantes kok laper*

ah well.... chatting aja dulu kali yeee

AT worK

Being So StupiD!!!

So, here I go again. Posting my journal. I was DEAD tired ! Tired of any relationship at all! Just when I thought I found a new guy with a descent manners, the facts I knew (being the last person to know is such annoying!!!) he was a jerk.. like others. God ! When will my annoying, stubborn thoughts will end? I am fed up with those disturbing guys.. Anyway, today is such a bore, so many things to do.. but i don't know how I can handle those things.. it depends on someone else's opinion. If I were my boss, I would rather just put someone else to start the company web! Why should I have to do things that's not even my responsibilities? Gila.. kemarin kemarin gue ditipu lagi sama orang.. maksudnya apa ya, nipu-nipu kek gitu? Berasa goblooogg.. banget.. eh, gila.. dah tua gini kok ya juga bisa dikerjain orang.. Huhieheihe.. gila banget !! Ya udah ah.. back to work.. back to my routine.. Ntar lagi deh .. :)

Original Tuesday

So, today is an ordinary day. Sitting in front of the computer in my little office (which is now using broadband internet!!-yipikaye!!) getting online with friends, searching for any phone numbers which I do not know whether is important or not..! Just write those down! :p~

Anyway, Sarah get online just a few minutes ago, informing that Germany's Govt needs lots of people to work in Aceh. I called up a friend to inform him as well. He didn't seem to be interested. I don't know whether he wants a job or not! Or he rather stayed at home and waited for someone to give him money? Dunno what he wants.

*sigh* Anyway, it's lunch time. The caterers only cooked simple lunch. That'll do... I am not hungry anyway.

Argh, when the pay day will come??!! I am short of money already!

Patience is always the word....